My baby starts prekindergarten today! He also turned 4 today! I just put him in the car and C. is driving him and Tortuga, to school while I stay home with the girls. I surprised myself as tears came to my eyes while I watched them drive off. I cannot help but think back to a year and a half ago when my baby came home. He was 2 1/2 years old, big head, large untamed curls, and only a few discernable words.
My chatterbox declared that he was ready to go to school as I woke him up with a hug and a whispered "Happy Birthday!" He helped me pick out his shirt for school today and declared once he was all dressed and ready to go downstairs for breakfast that he had changed his mind and didn't want to go to school. "I'll wait til next time." he announced. I suggested he might be a little scared, as we have all been on this day and reminded him how hard he has worked to be ready to go to school. He is eager to learn his letters, numbers, shapes and "do homework." He is definitely ready. Am I?
Don't misunderstand. I AM ready to send him off to school but I am NOT ready for the challenges it will bring. I fear he will have a recurrence of issues as he moves to school. The behavior challenges have started to emerge and it is easier to identify and address them while he is here at home. What if he hurts another child? Forgets his potty training? Begins stealing and lying and sneaking the way his siblings have? I know I will deal with them and certainly don't want to jinx them but it is a familiar pattern and part of the baggage my children seem to bring with them from their foster care experiences. I know we will manage whatever arises. For now I will enjoy the beginning of a new era and the wonderful experiences he will have!